This is part two to Prefrontal Cortex. I thought I was done writing about this person but I went to a poetry hour workshop thing and the prompts led me to this poem.
Dear Newest Delusion, Sweet talk me into loving you Tell me that you’ll catch me if I fall for you Knowing you’ll discard once you get what you want And that I’ll forgive you no matter the cost, My innocence, my sanity, the world, my naivety Laugh me into forgetting about the tears Kiss the scars you left me to heal Then cut me deeper with words like daggers My darling backstabber, I’ll call out for you As you walk away, leaving me to bleed out Gasping for air as I wonder How much time I wasted on your potential? Seeing all you could be and not what’s in front of me I truly am my own worst enemy Because rose-colored glasses only lead to resentment And hatred for myself because you told me how this ends But I foolishly believe my love could prevent The untimely demise of our relationship. I’m sorry that it took me so long to realize this is not where I belong But you didn’t even decide for yourself that she was what you no longer wanted I know I said I would take some time for me but all I really needed was a couple of seconds Because in the time it took for you to leave, I had already cleaned up your mess I know I said you wouldn’t be single for long and truth is I was projecting You say your codependency may be strong but my loneliness is everlasting.
This is one of my favorites! I feel like I say that about everything I post but isn’t that how it should be?
“Sweet talk me into loving you” is so me! Like I’m pretty sure I said something along those lines to the subject of this piece. I wonder if he knows he’s the subject. Probably not because this is overly dramatic.
The entirety of this relationship was me going against myself. So this was a good way to finally close that chapter.
As always, take what resonates and leave what doesn’t!
With love, always
Natasha K
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