THE POEM
And so the day has finally come Where I admit I wanted you to break me To kill that version of myself so I could be Forced to deal with all that I deny At first, I wanted to change out of spite Because you spoke so definitely of the routines in my life But I came to understand that this was still deserting myself And having done me wrong enough, I’m taking action to better me Self-reproach, seeing the error in my ways Metanoia, deeply desiring a change My only solution was to hide away And reevaluate self Get a clearer picture of all the damage I dealt Face to face with a disconnected self I had to unlearn the person in the mirror Shielding myself from uncomfortable truths I brought to light the parts of me I despised Previously blind to the beauty others saw I was made to see all that I believed to be hidden Then I found myself in a process of self-destruction Rejecting all I believed to be true Creating my new reality Finetuning my definition of what it means to just be And within my radical self acceptance Did I finally start to see myself And all my features and all my talents Acknowledging the value I hold And when you finally see me again I will still be me but anew Not that I’m waiting on you I’m long past us now Because I know I’d have to be the one to reach out And I progressed past that now!
As always, take what resonates and leave what doesn’t!
With love, always
Natasha K
Second Place